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偶很久以前就开始写的。。。贴过一次，可是字数不够被删了。。。偶又回来啦！！

"Jaejoong, how are you doing now?"I struggled feverishly to sit up in my bed as Yunho came into my room, holding some cold medicine and a glass of water. He hurried to my bed and put the medicine down on the counter and brought the glass of water to my lips.He was so close… I could smell the fragrance of shampoo in his caramel colored hair and see the evident worry in his dark eyes. I blanked out for a minute but gathered myself quickly, smiled a little, and drank the water."I feel like I'm going to die." I answered truthfully.His hand stopped midair as he was reaching for the medicine on the counter."Don't say that," He said quietly, "If you die, I don’t think I can continue living without you.”I was shocked. Yunho wasn't the type to say something like that. It sounded like something said between lovers.An awkward silence hung before us."Just joking," He finally said, flashing me a smile, "Get some rest, we still need to film for our new single."Then he just left the room. I lay back on my bed and was awake for what seemed like hours, thinking about what he said. Does he know how I really felt about him? I couldn't help but wonder.I can hear him in the kitchen, fumbling with the pots and pans. A few seconds later, a crash rang from the kitchen. I sighed and slowly got up to my bed, leaning to the wall for support; he will destroy the whole kitchen if he continues what he is doing. If I guessed right, he was trying to make something for me to eat. My whole body ached and my bones were groaning in pain. It feels like someone was constantly hammering a nail into my head at full power, and there was a buzzing in my ear.I finally reached the kitchen, and I wasn’t one bit shocked to see that it looked as if a whirlwind hit the place.Pots and pans were all scattered on the floor. Broken pieces of eggshell were littered on the kitchen counter. On the ground was a mess of what looked like a few broken bowls and some gooey yellow egg yolk."What were you trying to make?" I asked weakly."Scrambled eggs." He answered truthfully and looked at me with those innocent eyes.I gave a weak sigh and took out a dustpan from the cupboards. As I swept the floor, he kept sneaking little peeks at me when he thought I wasn't looking. He was worried that I was going to get mad at him for destroying my kitchen. Despite his age, he was just sometimes too innocent and cute.I got up from the floor, having cleaned up all the bits and pieces of the broken bowls. Suddenly, a nauseating feeling hit my stomach and the world started spinning in front of my eyes. My feet staggered and I fell to the floor. I could hear Yunho calling my name as he hugged me, trying to get me to open my eyes.'You're so loud...' I thought. I looked at his worried expression, and my whole body suddenly felt airy. I slowly closed my eyes, and gently pressed my lips to his.

A large roar of thunder snapped us out of our trances. My face was burning from both embarrassment and anger.“What do you think I am?!” I yelled at him, tears stinging in my eyes, “A slut? Is that it? Do you see me as someone who will be called and dismissed at your will?!Yunho averted from my gaze and stared at the floor, his expression shadowed from his hair. His hands were clutched onto his shirt convulsively, his knuckles shining white.“If you still care even the tiniest bit about how I feel at all, “I hissed with a tone of disgust, my heart jumping and aching so much it threatened to rip away from my chest, “Don’t sneak into my room and use me as a tool for your own despicable needs.”He finally looked up at me again, the same blank expression that I hate seeing so much back on his face.I stared at him, hoping he would say something, anything at all. I was disappointed. There was a tiny corner in the back of my mind that held a futile hope, of him feeling the same way towards me as I do towards him. But he didn’t protest to my mocking. Does that really mean I was only a toy that he could throw away whenever he wanted? The thought of it made my anger flare even more. With a frustrated curse, I jumped out of the bed and walked furiously towards the door, my heart hurting more and more with each step that I take.As I passed by his side, he suddenly turned around and gripped my wrist.“Jaejoong…”I tried to tug my arm away from him, but he held on with an amazing amount of strength and his hand didn’t even budge. His grip was hurting me, and my brows were scrunched together in pain.“I love you.”I froze instantly and stared at him with a ridicule expression on my face. He shouldn’t something like that if he doesn’t mean it. He saw the disbelief on my face and leaned in, holding me in a tight embrace. I only had a second to tilt my head up and look at him before he lowered his lips to mine and started a rough, breathtaking kiss.