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How Adele turned heartache over her divorce into her most honest album yet
Adele thought that maybe, just maybe, she could quietly slip news of her and her husband’s separation into the world without much notice. It was Good Friday, 2019, and their marriage had been over for some time. A holiday weekend, she figured, might deflect some of the attention she had been dreading.
“Fucking idiot,” she says of her plan.
Adele and her husband, Simon Konecki, had been together since 2011. Their relationship was remarkably under the radar given Adele’s growing stardom, partly because she really only emerged from her life as a wife and mother to their son, Angelo, to release record-shattering albums. Their wedding was so private there aren’t even pictures online.
Adele’s dread only intensified after a press release went out that Good Friday evening. A close friend flew out from England to Los Angeles to make sure the then-30-year-old wasn’t on her own as the news spread. Tweets and memes flooded social media, expressing not just shock that the relationship had ended, but also excitement at the idea that Adele’s heartbreak would inspire new music.
阿黛尔如何将离婚的心痛变成她迄今为止最诚实的专辑阿黛尔想
阿黛尔曾想过也许，只是也许，她可以不大张旗鼓地把她和她丈夫离婚的消息向世界宣布。 那是 2019 年的耶稣受难日，他们的婚姻已经结束了一段时间。 她想，周末假期可能会转移一些她长期恐惧的注意力。
“这个计划很傻，”她谈到她的计划时说。
阿黛尔和她的丈夫Simon Konecki从 2011 年就在一起了。鉴于阿黛尔的星途，他们的关系非常引人注目，还有部分原因是她暂时从妻子和母亲地身份中脱离出来，并发行了一张各种打破记录的专辑。 他们的婚礼非常私密，网上甚至没有照片。
在耶稣受难日晚上发布新闻稿后，阿黛尔的焦躁加剧。 消息传开后，一位密友从英国飞到洛杉矶，以确保当时 30 岁的她不是一个人。 推特和表情包充斥着社交媒体，不仅表达了对这段关系结束的震惊，还表达了对阿黛尔心碎将激发新音乐的想法的兴奋。

You can understand where the fans werecoming from. Adele built her empire on heartache: moving reflections of painand its aftermath, like finding “Someone Like You,” or merely saying “Hello” toan ex after years have passed. At the time Adele and Konecki announced theirbreakup, nearly four years had passed since her last album, 25, and heraudience was hungry for something new. And what’s a better album prompt than ahigh-profile divorce?
For Adele, the fan reaction wasbewildering. “During something like that, that kind of significant thing tohappen in life, your mind sort of goes to those places: ‘Why don’t they likeme? Why would they write that if they’ve followed me for 10 years?’ But inreality, that’s not their responsibility. In reality, their responsibility as afan is to want a good record and to hope I deliver. So I took it with a pinchof salt, and it was fine.”
(Adele knows a thing or two about waitingforever for a favorite artist to release new music, like her friend KendrickLamar. “Fucking hell!” she says of her anticipation for the rapper’s next LP.Unlike her fans, she’s already had the privilege of hearing a few of Lamar’snew songs in the interim.)
Adele had enough to worry about besidesTwitter and the expectation of new music. Rumors and assumptions spread likewildfire, but the reality is that there were no heroes or villains in herdivorce. Konecki was a good husband and continues to be a great father toAngelo. He’s still one of Adele’s best friends, even texting her memes whileshe and I are together. Instead, the end came with the heartbreaking, if lessdramatic, feeling that she was getting further from the person she hoped to be.
“I didn’t really know myself,” she says. “Ithought I did. I don’t know if it was because of my Saturn return or if it wasbecause I was well and truly sort of heading into my thirties, but I justdidn’t like who I was.”
Adele wanted to be settled and happy, in ahome full of loving, organized chaos. She never really felt that, or at leastshe never felt truly present in it. “It made me really sad,” she recalls. “Thenhaving so many people that I don’t know know that I didn’t make that work … itfucking devastated me. I was embarrassed. No one made me feel embarrassed, butyou feel like you didn’t do a good job.”
Adele had already started writing the albumeveryone was waiting for. She began work on 30 in early 2019 and had itcompletely written by early 2020, though the pandemic would have something tosay about the eventual release date. Sure, it’s an album about “divorce, babe,”as she stated recently in her first-ever Instagram Live. But it’s not thecollection of scorched-earth power ballads everyone may have been expecting.
你可以理解粉丝的想法从何而来。阿黛尔在心痛上建立了她的帝国：对痛苦及其后果的感人反思，就像“Someone Like You”，或者只是在多年后对前任说“Hello”。在 Adele 和 Konecki 宣布分手的时候，距离她上一张专辑 25 岁已经过去了将近四年，她的听众渴望新的东西。还有什么是比高调离婚更好的专辑宣传呢？
对于阿黛尔来说，粉丝的反应令人困惑。 “在生活中发生那种重要的事情时，你的思绪会转转向别处：‘他们为什么不喜欢我？如果他们追随我 10 年了为何要那样想？’但实际上，这不是粉丝们的错。实际上，他们作为粉丝只是想要我做出好作品。我半信半疑，但也没多大问题。”
（阿黛尔表示她了解等待自己最喜欢的艺术家长时间不发表新作品的感受，比如她的朋友Kendrick Lamar。“Fucking hell！”她表达了对说唱歌手下一张 LP 的期待。与她的粉丝不同，她拥有了提前听到喇嘛新歌的特权。）
除了推特和对新音乐的期待，阿黛尔还担心着别的事情。谣言像野火一样蔓延，但实际上她的离婚没有英雄或恶棍。 Konecki 是一个好丈夫，并且仍然是Angelo的好父亲。他仍然是阿黛尔最好的朋友之一，甚至在她和我在一起的时候给她发表情包。但结局令人心碎，如果不那么戏剧化，她感觉她离自己所希望成为的人越来越远。
“我并不真正了解自己，”她说。 “我以为我了解。我不知道是因为我的土星回归（大概是占星术语吧），还是因为我真的快三十岁了，但我是不喜欢过去的我。”
阿黛尔希望在一个充满爱和有组织的混乱的家中安定下来并快乐起来。 她从来没有真正感受到那种感觉，或者至少她从来没有真正感受到它的存在。 “这让我非常难过，”她回忆道。 “然后有这么多我不认识的人知道我没有做到这一点......这使我沮丧。 我很不好意思。 没有人让我感到尴尬，但你觉得自己做得不好。”
阿黛尔早已开始创作大家期待已久的专辑。 她于 2019 年初开始了 30 的创作，并在 2020 年初完成，但新冠对最终发布日期有所影响。 当然，这是一张关于“离婚了，宝贝儿”的专辑，正如她最近在她的第一次 Instagram 直播中所说的那样。 但这不是人们所期待的芭乐。

Instead, Adele wrote an open letter toAngelo, in hopes that one day he’ll hear the album and really, truly understandwho his mom was and how her life changed during this time. The only songspecifically about her marriage is “Easy on Me,” the gorgeous, very typicallyAdele first single. Across 30, Adele assesses the most important relationshipof her life: the one with herself. Saturn returns are periods of major upheavalat the turn of one’s thirties, and Adele just went through hers, coming out onthe other side of a turbulent period ready to reckon with who she is and whatshe wants, even if it meant upending her own life.
She embarked on a spiritual journey, herown Eat, Pray, Love, if you will. It’s the kind of thing the acerbic Brit mightonce have rolled her eyes at. It was exactly what she needed.
The Good Friday announcement sent Adele offon an intense few weeks of bed-bound anxiety. She was spending more nights onher own now that she and Konecki shared custody of Angelo. It was the most timeshe had ever spent away from her son.
But when she celebrated her 31st birthdaywith friends in May 2019, eating a home-cooked dinner and watching a movie,something clicked. “I remember going upstairs, and doing my face, and gettinginto bed,” she says. Her birthday fell a few weeks after that depressing Easterweekend. “I felt quite hopeful,” she says. “It was the first time I felt I’dhad a really nice evening and I was OK being in the house and going to bed onmy own. I was not excited, but I was looking forward to the next day.”
The next day, she woke up to the Californiasun pouring through her curtains and “saw this tsunami of emotions” comingtoward her. She thought that maybe she would try to be busy. Instead, shestayed in bed and started watching The Sopranos.
“I was like, ‘This is going to be reallyfucking up-and-down,’” she says. And it was. But after the great birthday andrough comedown of a morning after, she decided to spend 2019 trying new things.She took recommendations from anyone — her lifelong London crew, industry allies,other moms at Angelo’s school, even her eyelash girl. She entered her “soundbath era” and began hiking regularly. That July, she climbed a mountain inIdaho with friends, where they wrote their intentions and buried them in thedirt. She gave up drinking for about six months, tired of the constant“hangxiety.”

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“Anything that could soothe my anxiety, Ithrew myself in headfirst,” she explains. She traveled “anywhere where there’smeant to be brilliant energy.” Jamaica, Greece, even a desert in Arizona, whereshe had done a similar intention-setting ritual. Adele’s diet and body werechanging, too. She had found out she’s allergic to most forms of gluten when shemoved to Los Angeles three years earlier, and later learned that a symptom ofgluten sensitivity is feeling depressed. “So, I was like, ‘Oh, great. Thanks,guys. Could have had a really fun twenties.’”
She got a bit addicted to the gym; it wasanother place where she didn’t feel anxious. She was learning she was strongerthan she thought and healing parts of her body, like the back that had givenher trouble for years. She also learned she is surprisingly athletic. “If I cantransform my strength and my body like this, surely I can do it to my emotionsand to my brain and to my inner well-being,” she surmised. “That was what droveme. It just coincided with all of the emotional work that I was doing withmyself as a visual for it, basically.”
All the while, she was writing. Most of hernew songs were penned during a trip to London that summer. The producers andsongwriters Greg Kurstin, Tobias Jesso Jr., Max Martin, and Shellback allreturned after contributing to 25. New to the squad was Inflo, a North Londonproducer who helped her get back to some of her writing roots.
“He really taught me to chill out,” sheexplains. After having Angelo, she’d become a bit of a “control freak,” whichshowed when she was making 25. It was more polished than 19 and 21, albums onwhich she was “just throwing everything at the wall.” Inflo made her take acloser listen to some of her favorite albums — Donny Hathaway, the Carpenters,Al Green, Marvin Gaye. Their albums sound perfect because they technicallyaren’t. “He was like, ‘If you really listen, this is a mess. If you reallylisten, people are playing the wrong notes. They’re coming in at the wrongtime. It’s all about the energy and the atmosphere that that creates. Why wouldyou want anyone to do another take if you’ve just got the most perfect takethat there is?’”
Their time in the studio would begin with a“six-hour therapy session,” Adele says, when the pair would unpack what she wasgoing through at the moment and then spend two or three days pulling out a songthat cut to the heart of her emotional tsunami.
The album’s track list is almost achronological chain of events. It begins with a Judy Garland homage titled“Strangers by Nature,” which opens with Adele “taking flowers to the cemeteryof my heart” and wondering if she’ll ever learn “to nurture what I’ve done.”She made that one with Ludwig Göransson, the Oscar-winning Swedish composer whoworked on Black Panther and with Childish Gambino (whom, by the way, Adele’sbeen into for “donkey’s years”).
“I met Göransson at a party, and I waslike, ‘He’s definitely European, that guy,’” she recalls. As a Brit in L.A., she finds herselfseeking out other Europeans because of their often similar dry sense of humor.
“任何可以缓解我焦虑的事情，我都会全力以赴，”她解释道。她去“任何有辉煌能量的地方”旅行。牙买加、希腊，甚至是亚利桑那的沙漠，她在那里做过类似于入定的仪式。阿黛尔的饮食和身体也在发生变化。三年前，当她搬到洛杉矶时，她发现自己对大多数形式的麸质过敏，后来了解到麸质敏感的症状是感到沮丧。 “所以我想，‘哦，太棒了。谢谢你们。本来可以度过一个非常有趣的二十岁。’ ”
她有点沉迷于健身房；这是另一个她不感到焦虑的地方。她了解到自己比想象中更为强壮，并治愈了她身体的某些部位，比如多年来给她带来麻烦的背部。她还了解到她的运动能力令人惊讶。 “如果我能像这样改变我的力量和我的身体，我当然可以改变我的情绪、我的大脑和我的内心幸福，”她推测道。 “这就是驱使我的原因。基本上，它恰好与我为自己做的所有情感工作相吻合。”
一直以来，她都在创作。她的大部分新歌都是在那个夏天去伦敦旅行时创作的。制作人和词曲作者 Greg Kurstin、Tobias Jesso Jr.、Max Martin 和 Shellback 在为 25 做出贡献后都回来了。 Inflo 是新加入的，这位北伦敦的制作人帮助她找回了自己的创作根源。
“他真的教会了我冷静下来，”她解释道。有了 Angelo 之后，她变得有点“控制狂”，这在她制作 25 时表现出来。它比 19 和 21 更精致，而19和21则是“把情绪全部宣泄（just throwing everything at the wall）”。 Inflo 让她更仔细地聆听了一些她最喜欢的专辑——Donny Hathaway、the Carpenters、Al Green、Marvin Gaye。他们的专辑听起来很完美，因为它们在技术上不是。 “他说，‘如果你真的听，这真是一团糟。如果你真的在听，人们会弹错音符。他们进来的时间不对。这一切都与创作时的能量和气氛有关。如果你刚刚得到了最完美的镜头，你为什么要让别人再拍一次？’ ”
他们在录音室的时间将从“六小时的治疗课程”开始，阿黛尔说，并解开她此刻正在经历的事情，然后花两到三天的时间拿出一首直切她情感海啸的歌曲。
专辑的曲目列表几乎是一个按时间顺序排列的事件链。 它以名为“Strangers by Nature”的 Judy Garland 致敬开始，代表着她“将鲜花带到我心中的墓地”，并好奇她是否会学会“培养我所做的一切”。 她与Ludwig Göransson合作创作了这首曲子，这位瑞典作曲家曾参与《黑豹》的创作，并与 Childish Gambino（顺便说一下，阿黛尔喜欢了很多年）合作过。
“我在一次聚会上遇到了 Göransson，我当时想，‘那个家伙绝对是欧洲人，’ ”她回忆道。 作为身在洛杉矶的英国人，她发现自己在寻找其他欧洲人，因为他们通常都具有相似的枯燥幽默感。

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说给Anglo布置了一间全是乐器的房间，想给他一个艺术的氛围，但是Anglo只喜欢玩手机刷抖音那里笑死我了

They worked on “Strangers” after she hadwatched the Renée Zellweger-led Garland biopic, Judy, and wondered why no onewrote songs like that anymore. She calls the track her Death Becomes Hermoment, alluding to the camp classic starring Meryl Streep and Goldie Hawn astwo vengeful, youth-obsessed frenemies. Through “Strangers,” Adele acknowledgesbeing a bit of a “hot mess.”
The song, short and whimsical, is so unlikeanything she’s done before that she almost thought about giving it to someoneelse to sing or sample. “You know in the old movies when someone’s having aflashback or a memory to something else, and it’s almost like they’ll shoot ariver or a pond and the water goes all ripply?” she asks. “It reminds me ofthat.”
On “My Little Love,” Adele sings an R&Blullaby to Angelo. She admits that “Mama’s got a lot to learn” and that she’sjust barely holding on. Strikingly, it includes voice memos of Angelo askingtough questions she tries her best to answer. “I love your dad because he gaveyou to me,” she says to him during bedtime conversations she’d begun to recordin a period of severe anxiety. “It was unbearable,” she explains now, “and soif I started getting anxious about something I might or might not have said, Icould just listen back to this and be like, ‘OK, I’m fine.’”
Adele has started to wonder about society’sexpectations for mothers, how they’re always just moms while dads can be manythings at once. Much of that is what reinforced her feelings of failing Angeloafter leaving Konecki. “I might not have been emotionally there all the time,but I never wasn’t there for him,” she says, defending herself against her ownfears. “My Little Love” — and, really, all of 30 — is about showing Angelo whohis mother really is: a layered and complicated woman with an identity outsideof their relationship, who’s struggled and cried and hurt.
“He needs to know everyone goes throughit,” she continues. So far, and as heard on the voice memos, he is quite theunderstanding nine-year-old. “He’s a Libra, so he is, like, ‘Chill. It’s fine,Mama. Just chill out.’”
In February 2020, Adele’s best friend Laurainvited Adele to come to her wedding. “I’d been so sad and reclusive,” Adelesays. “She was like, ‘Listen, I need you to show up for me. I need you to comeand run the party.’”
Since becoming famous, Adele often felt shehad to skip things like weddings and birthday parties for her friends. Sheworried her presence would cause paparazzi disruptions for the guests orinvasions of her own privacy. It’s not like she could ask to have all thephones removed from someone else’s big day. “I took it to an incrediblyisolating level,” she says.
But in the process of regaining herselfoutside of her marriage, Adele began showing up for friends like Laura. And inshowing up, she managed to leak news of her own album. A couple of glasses ofwine in, she took the stage at Laura’s wedding to announce that her fourth LPwould arrive in September 2020, a date that would of course slide back, thanksto a worldwide pandemic. “[Laura] was like, ‘I was not expecting you to reallyrun it like that,’”she says.
在她看过Renée Zellweger 指导的Judy Garland传记后，并想知道为什么不再有人写这样的歌曲了，他们开始创作“Strangers”。她称这首歌为她的死亡时刻，暗指由Meryl Streep和Goldie Hawn所饰演的两个报复心强、崇尚年轻的亦敌亦友的角色。通过“Strangers”，阿黛尔承认自己“一团糟”。
这首歌短小而怪诞，与她之前做过的任何作品都大不相同，以至于她几乎想把它送给别人演唱或采样。 “你知道在老电影中，当一个人有闪回或对其他事情的记忆时，这几乎就像他们拍摄一条河流或一个池塘，然后水面荡漾？”她问。 “这让我想起了那个。”
在“My Little Love”中，阿黛尔为Angelo演唱了一首 R&B 摇篮曲。她承认“作为母亲还有很多东西要学”，而且她只是勉强坚持了下来。引人注目的是，它包括Angelo向她提出棘手问题的语音备忘录，而她尽自己所能去回答。 “我爱你爸爸，因为他把你给了我，”她在睡前谈话中对他说，这是她在严重焦虑时期记录下来的。 “这是无法忍受的，”她现在解释说，“所以如果我开始为我可能会说或可能不会说的事情感到焦虑，我可以在听完语音备忘录之后说，‘好吧，我很好。’”
阿黛尔开始怀疑社会对母亲的期望，她们总是只是妈妈，而爸爸可以同时做很多事情。在离开 Konecki 后，这在很大程度上增强了她辜负了Angelo感觉。 “我或许不会一直情绪化，但我从来没有不在他身边，”她说，与自己的恐惧斗争。 “My Little Love”——实际上，30中所有的 歌曲——都是关于向Angelo展示他母亲的真实身份：一个层次分明、复杂的女人，在他们的关系之外有一个身份，她挣扎、哭泣和受伤。
“他需要知道每个人都经历过它，”她继续道。到目前为止，从语音备忘录中听到的，他是一个很懂事的九岁孩子。 “他是天秤座，所以他说，‘冷静。没关系，妈妈。冷静下来。' ”
2020年2月，阿黛尔最好的朋友Laura邀请阿黛尔来参加她的婚礼。阿黛尔说：“我一直非常难过和避世。” “而她说，‘听着，我需要你为我出现。我需要你来主持派对。’ ”
自从成名以来，阿黛尔经常觉得她不得不为朋友们而放弃参加婚礼和生日派对之类的事情。 她担心她的出现会导致狗仔队打扰客人或侵犯她自己的隐私。 她不可能要求在其他人的重要日子里丢开所有手机。 “这让我处于令人难以置信的孤立状态，”她说。
但在离婚之后恢复自我的过程中，阿黛尔开始出现在像Laura这样的朋友面前。 出席婚礼时，她泄露了新专辑的消息。 喝了几杯酒后，她在Laura的婚礼上登台宣布她的第四张 LP 将于 2020 年 9 月发行，由于新冠，这一日期当然被推迟。 “Laura表示，‘我没想到你真的会那样做，’ ”她说。

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