The key to the universe
Timo Tolkki
有些歌，不经常听，每次偶遇都会被触碰
有些人，不时长想，却已成为生命的一个印记

于是我们又说回了这张专辑。有几首歌在我心目中是分量特别重的，比如“Key to the universe”，是因为Kiske名不虚传的golden voice，也因为我长久以来铭刻在心的“the key to the universe is LOVE”；又比如"Are you the one"，是因为这是我听的第一首，当时根本不知道这是什么专辑却直觉反应“这歌的风格好像Stratovarius...”，而且之后我因着Sharon姐姐的声音而爱上了Within Temptation这个团。但是这里我更想说的却是下面这几首：Little Boy I Miss You, Father, Dear God 和标题曲Hymn to Life.
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ittle Boy I Miss You,一直觉得是Timo唱给自己的歌，唱给那个年幼迷茫的，生活在家庭暴力阴影下的自己。
The taste of ice cream on the first summer day
The smell of cut grass, remember that?
每次听到这里，我的脸上总会绽放微笑。
Nobody ever told you that there are
More colours than black and white
Let me show you a new world
Where you don't have to be afraid
I owe that to you, little boy
而每次听到这里我总是有抑制不住的感动。I owe that to you, I owe that to you。
所有孩子都应该快乐。
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记得在Stratovarius的官网上有个女孩说，当年她很小时爸爸妈妈因为她听Strato的音乐而打她，因为“金属乐是邪恶的”，而其他人很气愤地说有没搞错，Strato因为宣传“爱与正义”太多，在好多地方被当作是基督教乐团的，而也有人笑说，基督教？你没听过那首Dear God吗？
What's the reason for all this suffering?
Did you just **** things up
Or are you there at all?
Why would we need you anyway?
Tell that to me dear God
这首歌给我印象太深，前一段看Munich的时候，因为脑海中总是自动播放这首歌，痛苦增加一倍。Timo的话有时就像重锤砸在心上。
Why love God? Why can't we love EACH OTHER?
每个人心中有自己的上帝，每个民族心中有自己的信仰，上帝要我们去爱，我们却因为爱自己的上帝而不能去爱别人。

Hymn to Life是长达11'36"的主题曲，开场是一片寂静，鸟在枝头轻轻歌唱，海浪拍岸，零落的钢琴声像雨滴落下来，简单动人的旋律，Timo的声音加进来，讲述这个世界如何偏离了方向。于是这是Timo又一次的布道，又一次的坚持。有些时候我们对理想主义者嗤之以鼻，有时候我们反感世界和平的陈词滥调，有时候我们本能地排斥所谓幼稚，所谓梦想。我们说，只有年轻人才那么不成熟不现实，然而时过境迁，在岁月里我们遗憾地发现，只有太年轻的时候，我们才虚荣才骄傲才固执地不肯相信那些美好的东西。我想要再宽容一些，我想要再平和一些，我想要再认真一些，我想要，只是，做一个好人。
最后那段卓别林在大独裁者里的演讲一直是我的魔咒。尽管我已经听到几乎可以背出来了，还是每听一次都热血沸腾。
We want to live by each other's happiness, not by each other's misery. We don't want to hate and despise one another. In this world there is room for everyone and the good earth is rich and can provide for everyone. The way of life can be free and beautiful.
让我们，让我们一起。Let me sing this hymn to life
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最后我一定要说Father，这首最为鲜血淋漓的歌。不必怀疑，歌词里那些都是事实。那个父亲，酗酒，打人，在自己儿子面前割开手腕从四楼跳下去死掉的父亲，就是Timo的父亲；那个眼睁睁看着父亲在自己面前自杀的儿子，就是Timo自己。
我诧异于他写了这样一首歌，或者不算是歌，只有狂暴的嘶吼和平静的陈述。也许对于他这是摆脱这个心结的唯一途径。
I wish you would have been there to watch me grow
Guiding me with wisdom, love and patience
Telling me that you love me and showing it to me
Making this world a safe place to be
You hurt me so much that I don't know if I'm ever gonna be whole
But I want you to know that I'm gonna try
Still after all that you did I miss you
And the rose and the letter that I brought to your grave
Tells you about my longing
So I say goodbye to you now after 23 years
You were just a moment of my life and I got to continue
Maybe one day I will be able to forgive you
Until then goodbye
在钢琴声里淡淡说出的这段话，让我流了泪。
Maybe one day I will be able to forgive you，这句话说出时，也许他也没想到那么快就可以实现。
去年的新专辑里，从躁郁症中艰难康复的Timo在内页里留下这样的话：
I dedicate all my work on this album to my father Aarne Tapoi Tolkki. I am sorry that you left so soon. there would have been so much to share. Through my own pain I have come to understand you and your decision. Thank you anyway even for the small time you have stayed with me. You were a good man deep inside. We all make mistakes and you should not have had to pay those with your life. You should have stayed. I miss you.
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写下这么多话，大半都已经偏题。Timo教给我很多东西，而这张专辑有很重要的一部分在内。它对于我很重要，所以我想要写下来，在Timo四十岁生日这一天。并不是真的要强烈推荐给每个人听，因为听歌是靠缘分的。如果做推介，我只会简单的说，这张CD风格很多元，音乐很流畅，歌手表现很出色。无论是Kiske的高亢嘹亮昂扬，Sharon的飘渺和甜美，还是Timo本人略带黯哑的坚韧，都值得一听。
那么到此为止吧，我要去听那首030366,来庆祝030306。希望T叔在忙碌中有个快乐的生日，希望下次还可以去看你的巡回，希望你的Rock Opera进展顺利，希望Stratovarius继续你们的光辉旅程，顺便也祝Kotipelto的新专辑一切顺利，Jorg的两朵金花健康活泼，Jari和老婆过得开心，Lauri吸引更多的MM，至于Jens……词穷中……这老活宝不用人操心……
最后的希望是给自己，希望自己更加努力，做一个善良的心中有爱的人。：）

The key to the universe
Timo Tolkki
Another day is passing by
Nothing feels the same anymore
I see it clear without fear
Complete order in my life
As I look into the blue sky
I feel so much alive
I have never felt like this before
We are the same everywhere
We just want to be loved
We are confused, we are scared
Still we have to find our own way
Life's not always very easy
There are times when it all feels black
But I tell you there is always a way
And the key to the universe is love
And this key could free the mankind
Trust yourself
The voice within will guide you on your path of life
The key to the universe is love

整个专辑都很棒，我一般是从头听到尾，因为这个专辑叙述了一个完整的故事。单个听，总觉得缺点感觉，除了《are you the one》之外。
一个人加着班，音箱随机的播放着歌曲，到 key to the universe，我把手头的事放一边，找到这个专辑，从第一首开始播放，开了这个楼。

另外，也激励推荐此专业的同名歌曲《Hymn to Life》
let me live another day without sorrow,without shame
let me feel the wind on my face
let me feel the sun and live my days with fun
let me sing this hymn to life
这首歌很长，全长11分36秒。中间有一段 卓别林《大独裁者》的演讲，奇异的契合在鼓点当中。

写到这里，脑中又回想起了另一首 13分41秒的摇滚《The Poet and the Pendulum》

The Poet And The Pendulum
Nightwish
来自专辑《Dark Passion Play》，2007年发行
（注：歌曲由五个部分组成："White Lands Of Empathica"、"Home"、"The Pacific"、"Dark Passion Play"、"Mother And Father""）
I. "WHITE LANDS OF EMPATHICA"
The end.
The songwriter's dead.
The blade fell upon him
Taking him to the white lands
Of Empathica
Of Innocence
Empathica
Innocence

II. "HOME"
The dreamer and the wine
Poet without a rhyme
A widowed writer torn apart by chains of hell
One last perfect verse
Is still the same old song
Oh Christ how I hate what I have become
Take me home
Getaway, runaway, fly away
Lead me astray to dreamer's hideaway
I cannot cry 'cause the shoulder cries more
I cannot die, I, a whore for the cold world
Forgive me
I have but two faces
One for the world
One for God
Save me
I cannot cry 'cause the shoulder cries more
I cannot die, I, a whore for the cold world
My home was there 'n then
Those meadows of heaven
Adventure-filled days
One with every smiling face
Please, no more words
Thoughts from a severed head
No more praise
Tell me once my heart goes right
Take me home
Getaway, runaway, fly away
Lead me astray to dreamer's hideaway
I cannot cry 'cause the shoulder cries more
I cannot die, I, a whore for the cold world
Forgive me
I have but two faces
One for the world
One for God
Save me
I cannot cry 'cause the shoulder cries more
I cannot die, I, a whore for the cold world
III. "THE PACIFIC"
Sparkle my scenery
With turquoise waterfall
With beauty underneath
The Ever Free
Tuck me in beneath the blue
Beneath the pain, beneath the rain
Goodnight kiss for a child in time
Swaying blade my lullaby
On the shore we sat and hoped
Under the same pale moon
Whose guiding light chose you
Chose you all
" I'm afraid. I'm so afraid.
Being raped again, and again, and again
I know I will die alone.
But loved.
You live long enough to hear the sound of guns,
long enough to find yourself screaming every night,
long enough to see your friends betray you.
For years I've been strapped unto this altar.
Now I only have 3 minutes and counting.
I just wish the tide would catch me first and give me a death I always longed for ".
IV. "DARK PASSION PLAY"
2nd robber to the right of Christ
Cut in half - infanticide
The world will rejoice today
As the crows feast on the rotting poet
Everyone must bury their own
No pack to bury the heart of stone
Now he's home in hell, serves him well
Slain by the bell, tolling for his farewell
The morning dawned, upon his altar
Remains of the dark passion play
Performed by his friends without shame
Spitting on his grave as they came
Getaway, runaway, fly away
Lead me astray to dreamer's hideaway
I cannot cry 'cause the shoulder cries more
I cannot die, I, a whore for the cold world
Forgive me
I have but two faces
One for the world
One for God
Save me
I cannot cry 'cause the shoulder cries more
I cannot die, I, a whore for the cold world
Today, in the year of our Lord 2005,
Tuomas was called from the cares of the world.
He stopped crying at the end of each beautiful day.
The music he wrote had too long been without silence.
He was found naked and dead,
With a smile in his face, a pen and 1000 pages of erased text."
Save me
V. "MOTHER & FATHER"
Be still, my son
You're home
Oh when did you become so cold?
The blade will keep on descending
All you need is to feel my love
Search for beauty, find your shore
Try to save them all, bleed no more
You have such oceans within
In the end
I will always love you
The beginning.

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如果想理解这首歌其实不难，只要抓住一点：托马斯（下称T哥）对于他单恋的tajia（下称T姐）的离去所郁闷在心底的狂怒和深深的无奈的宣泄就够了。
夜愿的灵魂人物T哥单恋主唱T姐，但可惜T姐爱上的是另一个企业家。姻缘难成，而且最终这个被T哥视为精神归宿的乐队也因此变得支离破碎。
这首歌乃至整张专辑几乎都成了T哥在T姐离开后得感情宣泄。而这首歌正是T哥所有感情得一个总括，包含愤怒，绝望，哀求，遗憾，无奈，乃至逐渐冷静，寻求救赎（或者说逃避），重生，与其说重生不如说是通过活着控诉自己得感情。
而这张专辑的其他几首曲子，分别表达了一些比较单一的感情，愤怒，控诉居多。诸君可自行体会。每首歌都好听到不行。虽然整个专辑是T哥对T姐的背叛（在他看来就是背叛）的控诉，但这丝毫不影响T哥将整个专辑做的美轮美奂，赏心悦耳。
哈哈，T哥此人，可谓奇才。只是感情一项，郁郁不得，不过也因此让他出了更多的好作品。
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