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雨中的杀玲
楼主
I bell, kill livestock the bell at one's side of pill. Can not remember the thing before how many years that is, from now to now for a long time, memory a little turns to be yellow like paper, a little is fuzzy . Kill livestock pill to be still very young at that time, dog yaksha still pieces of half goblin, is it is it store in even to set to endureThe pill puts down me in a certain village to kill livestock, he say that waits for me here. I have not resisted , nod, the unprecedented one is submitted to. It know I by he want it if going , if killing , if enduring , fall,I in he will have a bad headache,hope he headache because of me of I, then the unprecedented one is submitted to. The warm tail skipped my face when he turned round, I was still very small at that time, like that kind of warm feeling very much. It skip face of me, transient, is it go from me far to want. Kill livestock an adult. He goes back to see me over the head. I am unable to say other words again, or I say some unimportant words, I have forgotten it. He has not spoken , has not nodded , has not smiled , have not done anything . Just turn round, then leave away. I see his figure many times, far have, some are very near, only this time, there is one kind of sad feelings. It is set off yellowly that there is no setting sun, there is not the sad song , there are no words of departure, but such sadness. I think oneself unable to meet him again. Soon after he left, the village was destroyed by the pestilence, no people survived , including I. I is it kill livestock ball he is it let I to come back , know whether he has seen my carcass to know. In I have been all the time dark in the film after dying, have waited to have no way of knowing anything external for a long time for a long time. Why you do not reincarnate , the child? One day , have first overcast voice in being dark finally. The child, your emotion is too deep, fetter you. You should be free, let's go to reincarnate. I is it reincarnate everything that can forget this life to go, is that right? It is good Then I do not want The child, you are sentimentally attached to this life again you have resumed too already , OK? I mustn't is it kill livestock an adult to forget. Child, does not is it reincarnate you can is it visit soul to become , drift everywhere to go, without definite residence, unable to grow up, forever lonely so to go down. But in this way I may keep killing livestock by an adult, is that right? Child ¡¡Can he know you at his side, these what's the use? Don't try to persuade me again, do I only think whether to know at his side what would it matter or not? That sound no longer says anything, falls into silence again all around. I close the eyes, any imperceptible weight, because I am a soul now. I have become a tour soul. Visit soul one special physique , I can with kill livestock pill in generationing permanent equally too, and longer more alive than more he. I have already died, so can not die once again , I visit souls as one, just following him wholeheartedly, dies with reaching him, then continue the lonely one and is in generation, can't free forever. Very painful? Very painful. But I would still like to become and swim souls, follow him.
2004年10月28日 14点10分
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