我是最近才看完QAF(s1-s4)，而且没有字幕，于是被迫专心致志地看每一个情节、听每一句对话（否则看不懂）。和大多数fans不同，我并不迷QAF中任何一个角色（比较喜欢Em和Ted这两只黑色幽默的活宝），而是从剧情、拍摄手法、配乐、人物关系等方面来欣赏QAF，对于一些BMers和BJers在跳看的情况下由于看不到自己期待的人物关系而发挥阿Q精神，把qaf说成是根据市场调查、为满足同人女改走言情路线、浪漫不现实的肥皂剧，我觉得很可笑。不过，这是他人自由，我管不着也懒得管，而且，我的观点也只是个人对QAF这部电视剧的理解，而电视剧本身又是编剧、导演、演员等诸多参与因素的结晶，根本不存在绝对的主观和客观。不认同别人的观点，大可不接受或提出自己的观点作进一步的交流，没必要挥舞“忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空”的白旗维持所谓的优雅。我认为绝大多数BMers和BJers根本就是Mers和Jers，有谁真正站在Brian的立场来看待这两种关系？但作为QAF迷，我们是否应该尊重演员们在诠释角色时被fans忽视的出色表演，接受演员们对其角色的认识理解。Hal: …And it’s one of the acting challenges… making…allowing Brian to be as Brian as he needs to be, and trying to keep Michael from looking stupid, for liking him as much as he does, because Michael really loves him. And we have to know why. And it’s hard to do if Brian is going to be as Brian as he is. You know, he is uncompromising. And it’s hard to love someone who is uncompromising unless you’re absolutely on their side…曾经主持过脱口秀节目的Hal果然名不虚传，整个访谈节目，他说的时间最长。Gale: …He’s sort of guy world view that...or he absolutely has world view that’s all about the truth and honesty… although he’s not exactly honest to himself. But that’s the sort of…that’s what he gives to the world in turns of…you know, his opinions about everything, and he is very certificated towards the studies of viewpoint, towards the life and towards the other people…Gale保持他的一贯作风，结巴木纳地阐述深奥的哲理，至少我听懂了n个you know。Randy: …Justin is infatuated by the character Brian. He’s so cool to him. He is everything that Justin wants to be and wants to be with. Michael is Brian’s irritating friend. He doesn’t like Justin because Justin in someway has more of Brian than Michael does even though Michael is in love with him…Randy不愧为Gale的partner，简要流畅，还没等我反应过来，他已经说完了。如果看不懂MBJ关系，建议到brijus大的帖子里看看演员们更直接明了的答案：http://www.qaf.cn/bbs/read.php?tid=3523&fpage=1&toread=&page=1在看us版s1前，我已看过QAF的原版小说，对于MBJ的关系多少有些先入为主的观点，可看到s106我便醒悟到:US绝不会心甘情愿做UK的跟屁虫。有人认为QAF没有让观众发现B合理爱上J的原因，B会爱上J仅仅是因为编剧这么安排，那让我们抛开编剧，象演员那样进入角色的世界，以下是我根据自己看到的情景得出的理解：~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~未完待续（转自官方网站，作者：cookiesumin ）

即使Brian的真爱近在咫尺，Michael还是会心甘情愿地以“dynamic duo”的身份继续绵绵无绝期的等待，对无数真正属于他的幸福视而不见。Brian并不忍心让他一再错过，特别是在Michael的幸福有可能到来的时候。David也许能让Michael幸福，但在BD第一次会面时，Brian就深切体会到David不是也难以成为Michael的真命天子。s106(00:27:26- 00:27:34)Melanie: Long after you’re gone, he’ll still have Michael, Brian’s little acolyte, poor guy. Oh, but don’t worry. Michael can wait forever. Brian’ll never f**k him.s107(00:10:41-00:11:09)Michael: Look, I know you don’t like him…Brian: Who said I don’t like him? And why do you give a f**k what I think? What matters is what you think. If you like him, that’s all that’s important, even though he is quite a bit older than you, and lives in a world you know nothing about人的一生会遇到四种人：最爱你的人、你最爱的人、与你结婚的人以及最终遇到的？！几乎不存在你的真爱就是最爱你的人，反之亦然，这就是现实。对于Michael来说，Brian永远都是他最爱的人，David却把Brian视为敌人，而忽视了真正的对手——Michael。s107 (00:40:47-00:42:08) David: That’s because you’re all that matters to him. You’re his world, his life. Everything he thinks about, everything he dreams of, everything he knows…Brian: He’s my best friend since we were 14.David: That’s 16 years of waiting. He’s been waiting so long; he actually thinks he’s happy. But you and I both know that he’s never going to get what he really wants, is he?Brian: And what is that, Doc?David: For you to f**k him. And don’t tell me you don’t know it, and you love knowing it. Brian: You’ve been around for what, a week? You think you know him? You don’t. （David的确不了解Michael，Michael真正想要的不是Brian f**k him——他俩要f**k的机会大把，而是Brian永远都不会给他期待的那种爱。）David: I’d like to. But I never will as long as you’re around. Maybe I should just disappear. You’d probably like that, and he probably wouldn’t think twice about it. But I’m not going to. I’m not going to disappear, because I want him, even more than you don’t want me to have him. So if you’re really his best friend, give him a chance to be happy, to have a life, his own life. Let him go.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 未完待续（转自官方网站，作者：cookiesumin ）

David的占有欲和控制欲极强，（他是像我这种小女人烧香拜佛也求不来的好男人！占有我吧！！控制我吧！！！）不过，Michael不是“小女人”，他有思想、有原则也有坚强的意志。David把Michael当成金丝雀一样小心呵护，鸡毛蒜皮的事都全权包办，将“小鸟依人”的标签强加给Michael。同时，他还想让Michael彻底脱离和Brian共有的生活，否定自己。其结果只有让Michael桎梏于十字路口进退不得，因为Michael可以为他牺牲一切，除了撕掉自己挂上的“天真可爱”的标签。（我说过，Michael最天真可爱的地方就是对Brian单纯且盲目的爱）Brian一直在以他的方式提醒和纠正David，他知道：只要David愿意为Michael做出一些让步和改变，容纳和接受Michael的生活方式，David是可以给Michael带来幸福的。但结果还是被Brian大人不幸言中：s114 (00:28:31-00:28:40) By forbidding him to see me? You know, that’s not how you’re going to keep him. That’s how you’re going to lose him.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 未完待续（转自官方网站，作者：cookiesumin ）

Brian的标签：自私自利，唯我独尊将入而立之年（Brian自称的死期）又遇上Justin，Brian已经开始意识到：Michael也应该过属于他自己的生活了。可是David敌视BM的亲密无间，把矛盾推给Brian，用送花、晚餐、郊外度周末等Brian嗤之以鼻的ridiculously romantic向BM友情宣战。不过Brian从不言败，他只做他想做的事，只关心他想关心的人，更不会为某某放弃本来就属于他的一切。尽管他的处世态度和生活方式被身边所有人误解甚至抨击，但我行我素正是忠于自己的表现。人不为己，天诛地灭。当然，Gale对人物的分析时提到Brian并不完全忠于自己。“It’s not lying if they make you lie. The only truth they can accept is their own. ”s107 (00:37:05-00:38:01)Justin: He wants to have you arrested and send me away.Brian: Don’t be a drama princess. Don’t worry about me, I’m invincible. Hey, guys. Join the party.Michael: I thought you were really hurt.Brian: I am.David: Michael insisted we come right back. Brian: I told you not to.Michael: I know, but…Brian: Don’t go after him, Mickey. Don’t ever go after anyone.Brian在听到Justin说起父亲的车时就已经感知到他们即将面临的严峻问题，但他还是以惯有的“漠不关心”，不顾伤痛，引开大家的注意，因为他不想让任何人为此事担心。很多BMers认为Brian总在David和Michael间搞破坏，其实，如果不是Brian那些匪夷所思的干涉（对MD冷嘲热讽、在Michael为同居一事举棋不定时告白、出其不意的生日宴会、沉着稳重地处理David偷吃事件……）MD早就game over了。谦恭单纯的小M人见人爱，有这样的可人儿关心爱护，连神仙都要羡慕，聪明如Brian又怎么会轻易放手呢，更何况Michael还是他情感世界里唯一的亲人，他一直以他的方式关爱Michael。S110 (00:31:32- 00:32:07) Brian: I’m glad you came with me.Michael: We’ve always been there for each other.Brian: You more than me.Michael: That’s not true.Brian: Yeah, it is. I know I can be shitty to you sometimes. I know that. But it’s only because I know that you’ll always love me, no matter what.Michael: I do.Brian: I do too. Always have, always will. I don’t know how I could make it without you.这一段被广大BMers坚信不移地称为BM爱情宣言，不过各位和Michael一样误解了。Brian是用诚挚的言语以及轻柔的亲吻+避开Michael进一步深吻的行动证明他和Michael此生不渝的友谊。（有人说Hal演得不敬业，我不知道这个结论从何而来，我只看到他和Gale一样，尽全力完成每一个细节，虽然被观众甚至Mers忽略。）当然，Michael如我前面提到的，容易幻想，所以他拒绝与David同居并决定分手，接着就毫无戒备地在30岁生日被Brian狠狠推了一把。~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 未完待续（转自官方网站，作者：cookiesumin ）

BTW，我不是同人女，论长相，始终觉得QAF中和Brian最配的人是Lindsay。说BJ有“夫妻相”，是出于剧中一些琐碎的生活片段和两人的小举动。不知是导演的特别指示、剪辑师的刻意编排还是Gale和Randy在深入分析剧本后的默契配合。两人思考问题时都喜欢咬手指。两人高兴和不爽时都喜欢捂脸，遇到有趣的事，Brian就会有意无意地转头看Justin。最明显的就是209，Michael上台演唱，Brian则看着Justin不停笑。另外，314结尾等待竞选结果时，Brian本来看着Vic，可就在Justin说完：“The indomitable spirit of queers everywhere.”正要和Linsay碰杯时，Brian愣了一下，然后猛地回头看Justin，接着两人一前一后开笑。不知是不是Gale被Randy泼酒泼怕了。Brian喜欢抚摸Justin的头，Justin站在Brian身后就会习惯性为Brian做肩部按摩。还有很多像抬眉毛这类的小举动，QAF中的细节是相当耐人寻味的。比如：剧中一个重要场景Babylon（巴比伦——失落的天堂），CL也许只是无心插柳，我认为名字选得十分精妙，加上404中那个牧师的台词：“A man who lies with a man will burn in hell.”407中Brian提到Michael可能遇到的一系列意外事故，开导他要拿得起放得下。然后，Michael对Brian说：“It’s nice to know that no matter what happens, we’ll always have each other, like we always have.” Brian带着复杂的表情欲言又止。可以说：S510，Babylon在其鼎盛时期发生大爆炸、Michael受重伤、Brian与Justin劫后深情相拥，尽管大多数BMers对此深恶痛绝，骂CL黔驴技穷，可是这一切都在情理之中、意料之内。我估计S511出来闹事被Ben揍的牧师就是404的那位仁兄。~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 未完待续（转自官方网站，作者：cookiesumin ）

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