Just like a downpour
all the memories, came in front of me at one moment
first time I heart your voice
first time I saw your image
first time you said that you missed me
first time I send you letters
first time we met with each other
first time I saw you laugh
first time you give me a hug
first time I said that I love you
first time you kissed me
first time I hold you in my arms
first time I swear to marry you
......
but just like a down pour
all the raindrops dropped, gathered, and flew away
within my sight yet beyond my reach
it's January the ninth, 2014
the first time I felt helpless
first time I shount my family
first time I don't know who I am
first time I hate myself so much
first time I do believe in fate
and first time I do believe in god
it's much harder than I thought
yet likely
For the first time
it's a real chance for a so called man
to grow into a really man