Less than 5 mths left, the question has changed from which comp I would join, to should I join any comp at all... At this crucial stage of my life, however I haven't be able to concentrate nd make desired efforts... outside reasons caused a lot of troubles for me... but indeed it’s one of my weakest personalities doing the damage... I know myself more than anyone else, yet I dun wanna be a loser, which although, is likely to emerge... ppl say I m confident, by the achievement I got, by the attitude I showed on the stage, by any other superficial presentation from my past... but inside my soul, which I do believe nobody wil ever be able to read fully, residing the shameful scared seeds.. It keeps killing my passion nd darkening the prospect I used to have... time’s hardly enough there, yet I m so incompetent at too many things... do I deserve wot I expect, do I deserve to be who I expect to be... I doubt it... never doubt myself like this before... maybe coz I never had to face a vital moment of my life before... defeat or be defeated... being revealed from new year... let my soul be the witness... all the best..

这是他今天更新的博客里的英文，其实是5个月前还没参加快男的时候写的翻译是这样的：还有不到5个月的时间了，但我考虑的问题却从应该参加哪个比赛变成到底还要不要参加比赛。这是我人生的紧要关头，而我却根本无法集中精力，全力以赴。外部的诸多因素给我造成了许多的麻烦。。。但搞破坏也的的确确是我性格中的一大弱点。。。我比任何人都更了解自己，但是我真的不想做一个输家，尽管失败只怕即将来临。。。我曾经取得的成绩，我在舞台上展现出的风采和态度，关于我的过去的每一次浅白的介绍都可以说明我非常自信，但是，在没有人可以真正读懂的我的灵魂深处，却潜伏着可耻的恐惧的种子。它正在一点点吞噬着我的激情，令我曾经光明前途日益黯淡。。。时间已然不够，而我对许多事情依然无能为力。。。我还值得拥有我曾经渴望的那些东西么?我还配成为我期望成为的人么？我很怀疑。。。我从来没有像现在这样怀疑过自己。。。也许因为我还从来没有面对过这样严峻的时刻吧。击败别人还是被击败。。。新的一年会告诉我一切。。。。让我的灵魂来见证所有吧。。。一切最好的。。。。

http://supersuxing.blog.sohu.com/66411535.html今天的博文安娜体的色彩不是很强烈，跟那天的“黑夜”诗有一拼，又在惆怅了

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其实我倒不希望他这么频频上网和粉丝交流，汇报行踪。不过现在的市场就是这样，每个明星都有固定的一群铁粉，专辑、ep、写真册等等统统粉丝买单，不像过去了，全民都只萌这一个星。不过苏醒太聪明了，相信他会自己处理好这些关系的。一个追求完美的人总是希望面面俱到。