Write counting a thing.Had better being absorbed in doing a piece of thing, and achieving with it.-----R.

8.24.Have bought new EDISON songbook today. Be contrasting words of song all have finished listening to. The entire songbook is full of oneself, be still oneself. I do not know why , on the contrary grieved some are.This is one kind of what state of mind , very difficult to go and describe that. In short ,today state of mind is not good , I want to get faster to leave this place. Noisy , kick up a row. They kick up a row because of our common red clothes , I do not have way continuing smiling.Maybe be that previously I am able to smile , I will be shy. But, all, being not like that I imagine , bringing about all these all is my mistake. His what responsibility is not also had. I had spoken to others , he has not composed what to alternate , he has been able to smile at me. I can not bear but , my dignity is heavier than mountain , why, I to know just now now, but time to be unable to have gone back again. Being unable to that the words result that my energy ego restrains maybe during the period of that only is capable to do is such. I hate myself.

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8.26.I have doubted that the black week not having arrival for a long time comes.Luck is bad really very much.I like to stimulate, but I am not fond of that stimulation happening very truly on me. Feel that but not good like this.I dislike that face is yellow woman , she is in fact very nauseous.But she does not know that how nauseous are self really . Take a look at self face neither according to looking in the mirror. If have qualification and my gossip?Get out, rubbish.I do not know that why this has the so many rubbish in the world really. Alive had better go and die. This certainly is not that I decide, The rubbish always words having rubbish saying.