level 10

Stu: I've never done anything for anybody who couldn't do something for me. I string along a kid with promises that I'll pay him money. I only keep him around because he looks up to me. Adam, if you're watching, don't be a publicist. You are too good for it. I lie in person and on the phone, and I lie to my friends. Ilie to newspapers and magazines who sell my lies to more and more people. I'm just a big cycle of lies who should be fucking president. I wear all this Italian shit because underneath I still feel like the Bronx. I think I need these clothes and this watch. My $2000 watch is a fake, and so am I. I neglected things that I should've valued the most. I value this shit. I take off my wedding ring to call Pam. Don't blame her, I never told her I was married, and if I did, she would've told me to go home. Kelly, looking at you now I'm ashamed of myself... I work so hard on this image, on Stu Shepard the asshole who refers himself the third person that I only prove, I should be alone. I've been dressed up as something I'm not for so long. I'm so afraid you won't like what's underneath. But here I am. I'm just flesh and blood and weakness. I love you so fucking much. I take off this ring because it only reminds me how I've failed you, and I don't want to give you up. I wanna make things better but it may not be my choice anymore. You deserve better.
