Driving on the high way, thoughts hit me like swift wind, strong and mighty. There was a time, A time that I felt so hurt, A time that I felt that it was over, A time that I let my heart gone away from the Lord. It became my excuse, An wonderful excuse for me to being upset with God, For me to being cold with God, For me to being not praying to God. For a while, I have lived like that way, A senseless way.Senseless to God, Senseless to everything around me. And felt it is my right to be senseless, Because I am the one who got hurt and deeply wounded By not meeting my expectations. Tonight, as I drove on the high way, Thoughts, once again hit me, hard and strong. I suddenly realized, how childish I was, And how unwise I was, and how ungrateful I was, And how truly blessed I was.Sometimes I wanted to prove to God That even Sam and I have separated, But we are still close, our relationship still not ended. Tonight, I suddenly felt how stupid it was for me to think that way.At that moment, I finally realized, I am so blessed. If it is not God, Sam and I won't even contact each other anymore. If it is not grace of God, We could just be like any other people, Lost contact forever. God has his purpose over everything. I still don't know why God took him away from me,While we were so close. But I know that God is too wise to make mistakes, And too good to be unkind.Like one of the songs says,When you don't understand, When you don't see His plan, When you can't trace His hand. Trust His heart.Trust God's heart.His plan is not to harm me,But to prosper me, and lead me to a higher calling.And this is His heart. Never before and never will be for God intended to hurt me.That is His heart.Driving on the high way. Thoughts flashing by, Suddenly, I realized I have never been abandoned, I have been always held by the Hands of God. 

there is no god

You are a poet.--------------Don't prove. Improve.I miss you too, but I'm not Sam.Bless you!