7月15日2011
Closer To Fine
近乎美好

An angel materialized from a moon beam and sang me hersweet songs in the cool shade of her own moon shadow. Others soon added theirvoices in perfect harmony. I’d been praying for a sangha to sing with, kirtanspecifically, to get lost in translation and now in all ways it surrounds me. Iam sung.
月光化身为一位天使，她歌唱着甜美的歌曲，笼罩在自己的凉爽暗影中。完美而和谐的，其他的很快加入到她的歌声中。我一直在祈祷能有一段sangha（具体说是kirtan）来吟唱，脱离语言文字的束缚。而现在它就环绕着我，我自己被它歌唱了。

Chanting anything for 20 minutes or more willhypnotize you. And if you think this is strange, notice how we might chantnegative mantras to ourselves all the time in the form of I’m Late. I’m Tired.I’m No Good. Etc. And since what we love is what we become, our made-up faultskeep coming back around. Our chanting anything is a form of worship. I canattest that I sometimes give negative thoughts too much of my time andattention.
吟唱任何字句20分钟以上，它就会对你产生催眠效果。如果你觉得这很奇怪，那就注意一下我们可能是怎样的一直在吟唱着负面的颂歌的——我迟到了，我好累了，我不好，等等若干。而因为我们喜爱的事物最终塑造了我们自己，我们自己制造的错误也会掉过头来找回自己。我们的吟唱是一种崇拜。我承认我有时在负面想法上花费了很多时间和注意力。

LOVE sings the angel and so sings the lark in harmonywith the voice in her stomach and those in my head. She and I are many peopleat once and we learn how to dance together quickly. By chanting a soundsculpted of peace with words intended to be God’s many names, I escape –usually thru an open window and onto a zip line over an emotional landscape,that of a beautiful world free of suffering, with plenty of parking, freshjuice and metaphorical nudity, some might call it Heaven.
爱，她唱着天使，唱着云雀，与她身体以及我脑海里的声音和谐一致。她和我还有其他很多人很快就学会了怎样起舞。安宁地吟唱着神的各种名字的字句，我跑开了——通常通过一扇打开的窗子，然后在情感的土地上自由纵横。那是一片美丽的土壤，没有痛苦，充满了停车位，新鲜果汁以及象征性的赤裸。有些人管它叫天堂。

On stage, with a 6 stringed piece of the earth in myhands and particles of sky entering my mouth, salt water pouring of my fleshand fire racing up and down my spine, I sing wholly, guided by my own innerangels with equal parts demon, and I am afforded my VIP meet and greet passesenabling me to make-out with The Divine. I lose myself in concert and havinghad a sample of this spiritual sex keeps me coming back again and again. Thisis what REALLY inspires me. This is my drug of choice. This immaculate cravingis what drives me to make more music, that which I can serve at the next dinnerwith God and all of her hot friends, namely You.
在舞台上，手中是六根来自大地的琴弦，而天空的粒子从我的嘴里进入，盐水从身体漫出，火焰在我的脊椎上下沸腾，我在歌唱中交出全部自己，任由内心的天使与等量的恶魔指引，使用我的贵宾通行卡，尽情神交。每每演唱会上我都会失去自我，而这种精神交合让我不断地一次又一次回到舞台上。这才是真正让我充满灵感的。这是我选择的独家药物。这种洁净无瑕的欲望促使我创作新的音乐，于是在下次与上帝和他的火辣朋友，就是指你，的晚餐桌上奉献这些佳肴。

From the full moon high in the sky in Cancer thismid-July I am invited to consider leaving this Freshness Factor Forum. It hasserved me well for many years and was indeed a space for all of it. Iappreciate the gracious communication found in every strip of new comments. Imarvel how the community has grown in the sub pages of our little black bookwith the rotating header and I thank you thank you thank you for being a friendand fan, someone who reaffirms my feeling accepted. And now, thanks to anabundance of love generated within, I am filled up and I choose to no longerseek acceptance. I have seen how much of my expression has been for thatpurpose. Young men start playing guitar to meet girls. Or we start smokingcigarettes to fit in. The same goes for myriad ways we show up in the world. Iacknowledge those miracles and now step into a new practice of fulfillment. Asthis full moon wanes - I too will walk away towards renewal. FF5000 willcontinue to reside at this address, but there may be no one home for awhile. Anew expression for these thoughts will be birthed in due time.
当一轮满月高悬在7月中旬的巨蟹座的夜空中，我收到邀请而考虑离开这个博客。它在过去的很多年里都尽到了它的职责。我感谢每一个留言背后的爱心。我实在是非常惊奇我们的团体是怎样的慢慢发展壮大的，我感谢你感谢你感谢你作为一位朋友，一位歌迷，一位分享我的感情的个体。现在，因为我内心的爱的充裕，我充满了自己，而我选择不再试图被接受。我明白我出于这个目的可能会做出的行为。男孩子开始弹吉他来认识女孩子。或者我们吸烟仅仅为了成为团体的一部分。同样的状况通过许多方式在我们处世的时候展现。我接受这些奇迹，而现在我将要尝试一种全新的完善自我。这个博客FF5000将会继续在这个地址保存，但是未来的一段时间将不会作为任何人的家园了。这些想法就会以一种全新的方式在不久的未来展现出来。

The angel whom I’ll refer to as Emily, awoke sleepingcells and brought to life forgotten friends while calling forth new ones fromthe ether. She sang into my window from heaven’s patio and invited me to comeout to play. The same way she effortless drew a smile across our faces, shedrew words. I swooned in awe under the moon, at home inside my familiar body ofa home, welcoming peace beneath the sheets of my skin. I’d been waiting forthis moment to come.
我称作Emily的那个天使从睡梦中醒来，带来了遗忘许久的朋友以及新的面孔。她从天堂的天井穿过窗户对我歌唱，呼唤着我一起去玩耍。通过同样的方式，她不费吹灰之力的让我们在脸上挂上笑容，倾吐心声。我在月光下在敬畏中几乎昏厥，在我作为家的熟悉的身体里，欢迎着表皮之下即将出现的和平。我等待这一刻已经太久了。

At the end of a long, cold evening in the grass wewere covered in dew; our voices as cold and wet. She bowed out with a covertune that spoke directly to me, reaffirming my wish to walk away. And off Iwent.
长长的寒冷的夜晚即将过去，我们躺在草地上，身上沾满露珠；我们声音冰冷湿润。她优雅的起身离开，对我的心底唱着歌曲，让我再次确定了我想要走开的念头。于是我走了。


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马叔这最后一篇翻译得叫一个吃力啊...
大家可以开始盖楼了... 都是怎么理解马叔这次退出的呢？

也许有时候内心中对于生活的情感用文字来表达未免过于肤浅，若是要融入其中就要亲身去体味它，而不是刻意去用语言来描绘。马叔活得很有境界，虽然博客没了，至少还有他的歌。。。

或许简单的想安静一些吧.

十五字
啊十五字十五字啊十五字十五字啊十五字

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马叔是不是走火入魔了...
不过每个人都有走火入魔的时候...

一开始有种他不再出歌的感觉，突然觉得好可怕，不敢想象没有他的音乐的日子TAT大概是我想太多了..
他也许需要安静一段时间吧.blog上毕竟还是太喧嚣..

一点点的遗憾

雨胸很厉害啊

好喜欢jason的博客，Closer To Fine - close to fine
jason想平静自己的心酝酿出更有境界的音乐，明年专辑好期待


想不通，太意境了，不知道具体在表示什么。。。