翻译：deepseek
感谢库鲁斯的反审判对ai译文的校对

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那是一种穿透皮肤、血肉、骨骼，仿佛连灵魂深处都被舔舐的感触。
裹挟着恐惧的丧失感、痛苦的挣扎、以及夺眶而出的泪水；当这一切蒸腾散尽，这副身躯终于从囚禁自己的鸟笼中解放出来，被抛向了外界。
——那，是一场契约。
一场单方面的、自私到极点的契约，从头到尾都没有过问询过她的意愿。
她想质问，为何自己要遭受这种对待。明明想要控诉，却做不到。——因为，无论是那份情绪还是抗议的理由，都已彻底消失殆尽。
「咕哈哈哈哈，烂到极致反倒成了杰作！到底是哪个混账、又是为了谁，居然搞出这种节外生枝的破事来？恶心到让人发笑！」
那个男人夸张地弓起身子，放肆地放声大笑。
相似的境遇，相近的立场。从被置于的现状中推断出这一点后，她的警戒心仍让她与对手保持着一定距离。只是，在那期间，男人始终在癫狂地笑着。
那笑声，仿佛是在诅咒、嘲弄、嫉妒这世上的一切，而不知为何，她感觉心被狠狠地揪住了。
痛。但，并不冰冷。所以，她绝不松手。这样一种迫不及待的冲动，正驱使着她。
[喂喂喂，你脑子没问题吧？没疯吧？就算你在又怕又孤枕难眠的夜里想找个人牵手，也得挑挑人选吧？还~是~说~，你偏偏就好我这张脸？]
男人刻意摆出一副地痞流氓的姿态，将脸扭曲成丑陋的怪相，而她则直直地回望着那双眼睛。
或许这种反应完全出乎他的意料，男人明显动摇了。虽说让对手动摇并不算她的胜利，但这一刻，她就是要如此断言。
就是要如此断言，用这句话击溃他，这样自己就不再是孤身一人了。——她觉得，这比什么都重要。
[果然，你也不正常，脑子也缺根弦。啊，无所谓，挺好的！我早就受够这地方的破氛围了！在我腻烦之前，就陪你闹一闹吧。]
她握住了男人伸来的手，两人一起逃走了。
逃走了。没错，是逃走了。除了逃走别无选择。而若要逃走，就只能趁现在。
她并非孤身一人。可是，她真正想在一起的人，此刻却无法相伴。
现在这副模样的自己，话语无法拯救那个人。话语无法将那个人留住。为此而一路累积的努力，已经作为从鸟笼中获得自由的代价，丧失殆尽了。

「别哭，别抽泣，笑着唱吧！再怎么诅咒，天空也照样湛蓝，花儿也依旧芬芳。在那种鬼地方，你连思考这些的时间都不会有。你是自由的。是你赢了、夺了、拼命攥到手的自由。所以，摆着那张阴郁的脸……你到底想怎样？说啊，你到底想怎样？」
回过神来，她才发觉自己僵在原地，既没有前行一步，也没有后退一步。
于是男人窥向那张失去表情的脸，摆出了一副穷凶极恶的面孔，伸出双手，毫不留情地扼住了她的脖颈。
「咕哈哈哈哈哈，一张惨白发青的脸！要是没什么想做的，就这么死了也无所谓？你就甘心一切到此为止？放心吧放心吧。反正啊，人本来就是孤零零地去死的！」
被男人笑着掐住脖颈，她挣扎、反抗、拼命地扑腾。
明明直到刚才，她都连该如何呼吸也忘掉了。可真是奇怪。为什么，她要抗拒这份痛苦，为什么还要渴求下一秒的呼吸？为什么，她会觉得"到此为止"这件事，让自己如此不快呢？
连这等烦恼，在生死攸关之际不过是奢侈——她要多久才能意识到呢。
「怎么，有什么事吗，还要挣扎？不知死心的人，我快要腻烦了！」
这样说着，男人松开了手，她的身体重新夺回了自由，也夺回了生命。
鼻涕与眼泪淌下的痕迹，正是自己贪恋生命的证明。
她很快便接受了，原来自己体内仍存有挣扎的执着。
而若是在自身性命中找到了价值，她便开始渴望下一步了。

「那就是说，你已经下定决心去做了吗？多么大胆、多么自私，这样就好！与其陶醉在悲剧中阴沉哭泣，惹点乱子反而更有用！」
男人的话很难捉摸，言行也很难应付，但一旦习惯了，学会了与他打交道的方式，竟意外地轻松。
一直以来，她就擅长跨越那隔开自己与他人的边界。——无论自己愿不愿意，那程度甚至足以影响所爱之人的人生。
而自己竟无法将这一切视作单方面的强求，这证明这实在是她不配拥有的礼物。
「那么——你会怎么做，你要怎么做？既然活命的欲望高涨到这儿了，就赶紧带路吧！要是好玩我就跟着，要是无聊我就到这为止！」
不巧的是，她没有讨好这个男人的打算。但，她隐约明白了一件事。
那就是——越是不刻意讨好，反而越合他的心意。
况且，尽管还没有明确该做什么，但至少，想要什么，她已经决定了。
「咕哈哈哈哈哈！那双眼睛是怎么回事，演得不错嘛？简直像要毁灭世界的女人的眼睛呢！」
放声大笑的男人，说出了意想不到的话。
但，或许他说得并没有错。并非她主动想要毁灭世界，可万一，万一到了万不得已的地步……

■■■：「做该做的事吧。——为了，夺回我自身的人生。」
——一定是的，为了得到自己想要的东西，至少需要做好毁灭世界的觉悟，否则，她连站在那个舞台上的资格都没有。
（无法确定黑块是原文就有还是后添加）

Volume 45 Prologue - “White and Black”
Translated by: Sir Eggface the Forth
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Passing through skin, flesh, and bone, it was a sensation that seemed to have licked her very soul.
A sense of loss that gave rise to dread, writhing in agony, and the welling up of tears; by the transpiration of that, this body was released from the birdcage that had confined it, and tossed out into the world.
――That, had been a Contract.
A one-sided Contract, selfish to no end, one that did not take her opinion into any account whatsoever.
As for why such a thing had been done to her, she wanted to voice a complaint. Despite wanting to voice it, she could not do so. ――After all, both her feelings and reason for doing so, had completely disappeared.
???: [Kuhahaha, so rubbish it’s a damn masterpiece! Just what sorta guy was it and who in the world were they for their discretion to lead to such a damn troublesome situation? It’s so revolting that it’s hilarious!]
Bending his body in an exaggerated manner, that man cackled loud and foolishly.
Similar circumstances, and close positions. Inferring that such was the case from the situation they had been placed in, her sense of wariness still maintained a fixed distance between herself and the other party. Merely, all the while, the man continued to cackle manically.
That laugh of his seemed to be cursing, ridiculing, and envying every last thing in this world, and for some reason, she felt like it was horribly wrenching her heart.
It hurt. Yet, it was not cold. Hence, she would not relinquish it. Such an urgency, was upon her.
Man: [Oi oi oi, are you normal, are you sane? Even if you’re saying you took someone’s hand on a night where you were so frightful and lonely that you couldn’t sleep, you’ve gotta be a bit more careful in who pick for that. Or~ per~haps~, did you happen to like this faaaace?]
Deliberately putting on an unscrupulous act, the man contorted his face

into a hideous grimace, to which she returned his gaze directly.
Perhaps due to her response having been unthinkable for him, it was clear that the man was bewildered. Though not to say that it had been her win for having bewildered him, at this time, she would assert it so.
If she asserted it, and defeated him with those words, she would no longer be alone. ――She felt like that was more important than anything else.
Man: [As expected, just as I thought, neither are you sane nor are you normal. Ahh, that’s fine, quite fine! I was also getting fed up with the air and the atmosphere here! I’ll go along with you for a while until I get tired.]
Taking the hand extended out to her with those words, they ran away together.
They ran away. Yes, they escaped. They had no choice but to run away. And for running away, it was now or never.
She was not alone. However, the person whom she truly wished to be with, she could not be with right now.
The words of her current self, would not be able to save that person. Her words could not keep him in place. The efforts she had built up to be able to do so, had been lost in exchange for freedom from the birdcage.
Man: [Don’t cry, don’t weep, laugh and sing! No matter how much you curse out, the sky is still blue and the flowers are still fragrant. Back there, you weren’t even given the time to think about that. You are free. It’s a freedom that you won, snatched, and wrested free. So with that depressed face… what do you wanna do? Indeed, what do you want to do?]
When she realized, she found that she was frozen in place, having progressed not even a single step either forward or backward.

And peering into her face, having lost its expression, the man put on the most villainous face he could muster, and reaching out both his arms, he began to mercilessly constrict her neck.
Man: [Kuhahahaha, a blue pallid completely pale face! If you’ve got nothing, then are you fine with ending it here? Are you satisfied with things ending here, with everything up to here? Don’t worry, don’t worry. After all, all humans are alone when they die!]
Clasped by the man’s hands as he laughed and wrung her neck, she writhed, wrested, and fervently struggled.
Until just a moment ago, she had forgotten how to even breathe. And yet, it was strange. For what reason was she resisting against this agony, and still seeking the next? For what reason, did she find the notion of ending things unpleasant?
How long would it take for her to realize that even such troubling thoughts were mere luxuries when life was on the line?
Man: [What, something the matter, you’re still going to struggle? People who don’t know when to give up, I’m getting fed up with them!]
While saying that, the man let go of her neck, and her body reclaimed both its freedom, and its life.
The flow of her tears and snot served as proof that she had clung to her life.
She quickly accepted that the tenacity to yet writhe and struggle existed within herself.
And, if she had found the value in her own life, she began to covet what lay ahead.
Man: [Is that how you feel, feeling determined to do it? How bold and selfish, and that’s just fine! Rather than sobbing in depression while being drunk on tragedy, there’s far more avail in causing a stir!]
It was surprisingly easy to deal with the man’s elusive words and conduct once she got used to him and learned how to interact with him.
All along, she had been good at crossing the boundary that separated her from others. ――Whether she desired it or not, it was to the extent that it impacted the lives of even those she held dear.

And, the fact that she could not bring herself to think of it as one-sided, made it a gift that she did not deserve.
Man: [Weeeell then, what will you do, what shall you do? Given your will to live has expressly surged up here, by all means please lead the way! If it seems amusing I’ll follow along! If it seems a bore, then that will be it for me!]
Unfortunately, she did not intend on currying favor with the man. But, she somewhat understood.
That actively not trying to curry favor with him, was the best way to put the man in a good mood.
Besides, though she still did not know what she ought to do, she had at least already decided on what she desired.
Man: [Kuhahahaha! What’s with those eyes, a good performance? They seem like the eyes of a woman who’s gonna destroy the world, you know!]
Loudly cackling, the man spoke some rather unexpected things.
But, by some chance, he might have been right. The world was not something she actively wished to destroy, but perhaps, in some unlikely event, if that were to be necessary…
■■■■: [Let us do what is necessary. ――So that I may reclaim my own life.]
――Certainly, in order to obtain what she desired, she believed she at least needed to be ready to destroy the world, or else she would not even be able to rise to the stage that so concerned it.

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